Earl's View, focus on the front sight: Earl's View, focus on the front sight: What is the...

Earl's View, focus on the front sight: Earl's View, focus on the front sight: What is the...: Earl's View, focus on the front sight: What is the fear today? Lots of them being passed ... :    How does this fool notion that you can...

Tuesday morning....

  Quiet waking, my spouse came in and went to bed finally. She has been hanging with her friends from foreign lands in foreign speak, but heart warming social needs met and warmed until she had to face the cold American reality. She will sleep for many hours.

I liked quiet stand to then

   I can't sleep after morning wakend, I get up and turn off the outdoor lighting, and walk through the humming home to find, and fill the coffee maker.  If you truly want quiet you have to cut the power. Don't do that, I am not disturbed by my wife's breathing at night, I never notice silence until I take my breakfast onto the back porch and enjoy almost nature sounds. God is good. Two well cooked thick slices of bacon, two eggs and milk whipped up to gather the grease, slice of cheese for dairy and lovers salad (lettuce alone).

  No Tucker Carlson last evening, I spent time putting my CMP all Weather Sling (synthetic brown) on the new rifle and then reading to Blues in the background. I will start positions and dry practice today as I start lying to myself (great intentions gone awry). By eight I need to be on the road to the YMCA, early start is better than later making excuses for not doing my full rehab program.. I did notice as we were picking up and moving picnic tables in the park on Saturday how comfortable I am with not pretending to be strong and dangerous MALE. 'fat old man' fits and I can wear it, it is all mine. None of the ladies dress for me and I can enjoy all they abundantly display - although the credit union doesn't seem the best place to put on the slut mode. I really don't use the word slut, except to convey the shock of seeing more than I would want my daughter, wife, mother to show the public in the public.

  Mind is rapidly moving on, from thought to thought - I need to move out. Take care out there and be better than even you expected. It will be well, it will.

Earl's View, focus on the front sight: What is the fear today? Lots of them being passed ...

Earl's View, focus on the front sight: What is the fear today? Lots of them being passed ...:    How does this fool notion that you can't swim exist? Everyone can swim, but breathing water never works. It does help to learn in a c...

What is the fear today? Lots of them being passed around...

   How does this fool notion that you can't swim exist? Everyone can swim, but breathing water never works. It does help to learn in a controlled environment with experts, but Hondo has been tossing kids into the water for a long time. But you can allow your fears to magnify to the point that you can't swim, and that isn't helpful, neither is getting your training from watching Hondo and the boy. Nor is it productive to outlaw unregulated swimming without a life guard present and a certification of proficiency.

   Jump to school shootings, well I never saw any in my schooling, so I never knew they existed, when I was young Blackboard Jungle and Westside story meant knives, mostly switchblades, were the weapons of choice for the bad teenage boys.  I even owned one once - cheap waste of bravado enhancement. Pen knife was of more utility and only Spics used knives in fights (stereo types that no one wanted to be like). Most of that was media narrative, there were rules about threatening folks with knives, written and otherwise. But no one worried if any one was carrying a penknife - since two or three bladed knives were standard boy gear.  Why? Because our fathers, uncles and older brothers were all carrying them through the day. Remembering this makes me sure that many men weren't carrying pen knives - no one sharpened quills anymore, the name stuck from when they still did.

   Almost all the things one fears are based on projection of possibilities, it could happen and then magnifying what you want everyone to fear with you. I find walking through the world being amazed and laughing at wonderful surprises better than cowering over someone's nightmare. I don't find joy nor entertainment in the horror movies, but enjoy a good drama or gun slinging adventure with well developed characters... but then I like puzzles, too. I am becoming very accepting of change, fools and folly. Not all those things make me happy, but real life isn't about being happy only about pursuing happiness. And that too will change.

   Time to wake my wife, we have places to be and things to do. Nice to be in this fine country where we can do the important and the pleasing without being preyed upon nor limited by government excess regulations.... oops must not be paying attention, they have a law about that - being adventurous without a license.

Earl's View, focus on the front sight: Breaking free, walking away...

Earl's View, focus on the front sight: Breaking free, walking away...:    I have never liked commercials, telemarketers, computer interruptions of my viewing, door knocking salespeople and strangers out to kill ...

Breaking free, walking away...

   I have never liked commercials, telemarketers, computer interruptions of my viewing, door knocking salespeople and strangers out to kill me and loot my piles of stuff... but current culture demands participation and my attention or they will send someone to find out how I am. Do they really care? Probably not - but someone will try to call or thump on their side of my viewing of my activity. If I am blogging, like now, I would be likely to just never return if I had some popup ad.

   Break free, it is a bit of a chore for some things. I have lots to think about, current books being read, memories to be recalled and taken care of, and a mind that always wants fed. Give me more of what I am searching for... so I was doing the 100 years War and wanted some diagrams beyond what was offered in my book, and I searched and found the book I remembered - not at hand. Things move, are still here but behind some pile of things not disturbed for years, and I do mean years, and I could be mistaken.

   I do become convinced that I must start liquidating my stuff, throw away, give away and gift the really good stuff. Too much, too much. I also want to redo the Computer Cave, anyone know why I have three computers there? Well, if you do you are smarter than I am. I likely have all I need, just more than I realize or am prepared to handle.

Earl's View, focus on the front sight: So you are old and afraid.. why me, LORD?

Earl's View, focus on the front sight: So you are old and afraid.. why me, LORD?:   Came back from a success, looked at Face Book feed and left a note that I was going to flee. I am reading Northwest Passage, and would rat...